It's Funny

I used to believe that convictions and values were the only thing a person needed to be successful, to make a difference in the world. It didn't matter what other people thought; all that mattered was that if someone cared about what they were doing, who they were with, and where they were going, that everything would eventually work out for them in the end.

But, and this is cynical Lauren coming out here, that's just not enough. You need to change people's minds, make them believe in what you believe in, in order to make any difference. It seems like everything these days is based upon a group opinion...and if you're in the minority for a vote, it doesn't matter how passionate you are one way or the other. It seems like once everyone makes a decision these days, there isn't any changing it. All the shit about passion changing people's minds is pure bullshit. It seems like passion and really caring about people is a detriment to the cause. Life's not supposed to "get personal" anymore. Everything's supposed to be just based on plain old logic all the time; emotions, empathy...they just don't matter. Unless everything you believe in is based upon pure logic that everyone else immediately buys into, you're pretty much out of luck. I'm sorry if I can't separate my decisions from their consequences on someone else's future; it's not me. If my name is going to be attached to a decision, I believe that it automatically connects me with the people that are going to be affected by it.

I guess I'm just feeling really disconnected and really hurt by some of the stuff that happened today (cryptic, eh?) and I need a place to talk about it...to work it out in my own head so maybe I can make sense of it all.